Cat is right - stop the pressuring. If I held my breath waiting to ML I would be dead by now. To be honest, I can't remember the last time we ML (pitiful eh?) but the fact of the matter is, I would rather wait until he's ready and it be special then to pressure him into doing it and have the "are you satisfied now" look on his face. It's just not worth it. And as much as its "natural" for married people to do/want to do it, you are not in a "normal married" state right now. There are things that have to be resolved before he will feel comfortable again.
Things are strained between you two - do you really want to remember your ML sessions like that? I sure wouldn't want to.

Take it easy, have some patience (I know, easier said than done) but in the longhaul it will be worth it.

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)