Well, there's a whole lot of silence between H and I right now. He's too busy to call, and I don't call him anymore unless the kids want to talk to him or we need something desperately. He's spending nearly all his free time after work on his current ATV modification project. When that's done, there are several more projects to turn his attention to. Someday I would like family time to be nearly as important as horse power. :P
In his defense, He IS making some effort for us each day...coming home with or for supper, calling late to say goodnight, or stopping by the house late at night to check on his UPS shipments. He spent most of last Saturday with us, shopping for and installing a new washer and dryer.
One good development: when he stops by late at night, he usually takes some time to talk to me...so I'm practicing my listening skills. He talked for nearly two hours last night, and I made sure I said NOTHING about ME (my thoughts, etc.), asked non-personal questions--kept it all about him. He talked about developments at work, the quad project he's working on, a little about Christmases as a boy (in reference to the fact that our kids have WAY more toys than we did growing up).
So, I guess I'd have to say I'm fine. I'm keeping most of my fear, anger and resentment at bay and trying to be patient and find joy in each day. I'm looking forward to learning how to start building a new R. But when it comes down to it, we can't really until he's ready. So hard not to want to jump the gun!
