Well first of all, I think you need to focus on forgiving yourself for the A. Yes it was a stupid mistake, but you realise that and want to make amends. If you can't forgive yourself and accept yourself, then how can you ever expect your H to do the same?
I agree. Sometimes I feel like I have to let it go, but then it comes back to haunt me. To tell you the truth, I am not sure if my H can forgive me. That is the part that is eating at me.
Originally Posted By: Ophelia
I don't suppose the house has any spare bedrooms that you (and possibly your D) could move into? I know in your first post you said that all 3 of you sleep in the one king size bed, so it may very well be that there isn't anywhere else in the house you could sleep. If there is though, then perhaps you could arrange to have separate rooms, so that you could both still be under the same roof with your D, but you could still each have your own space as well.
There is a spare room, but his brother and SIL comes back and uses in during the weekends and one day out of the week. I rarely see him anyways because of my work schedule.
Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts with me.
As for your impending doom. I recall when my H handed me the divorce papers. It felt like the end of the world, but then I recall Love is a decision. From that point on, I decided I was going to Love him no matter what our R was. It motivated me to continue DBing because if he ever changes his mind, I would be in a better position to receive him.
