Please come back to the posting boards, I don't know what happened that someone mistook you for someone else (I do know there was someone on one of the other boards that got a tongue lashing from a few people because she was an OW and wanting us to feel sorry for her but it doesn't sound like that was you)
Some here are a little more sensitive than others - don't take it personally. As for your H not wanting you to post anything in "writing" I would have to say, if I had listened to my H, I would be insane by now. This board has given me a place to vent and stop myself from going completely bonkers.
You are in a bad state right now and need all the help you can get, emotionally, spiritually and physically - you have come to the right place to get all of that and more
Please reconsider, we need you as much as you need us.
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
