Just wanted to note that I had spoke w/my C yesterday about some of the issues being discussed - "right" to have sex; how to bring issues up with my W; whether to go with a practiced, perfect-word approach or the more 'blackfootian' focused, repetitive approach; and other messed-up relationship stuff.
Toward the end of the session he asked me whether I should set some sort of "deadline" for bringing the issue up with my W. (This follows a discussion we had several weeks ago about what drives me to complete tasks at work: deadlines). I told him that the difference between a self-imposed deadline on personal issues and a court-imposed deadline on work issues, is that, with the latter, you miss it and you get a p!ssed off judge and a p!ssed off boss. With the former, you miss it and just end up feeling more crappy about what a loser you are.
He suggested getting you (my invisible SSM friends)on board to help spur me on. I need a couple weeks to mentally prepare, so, I'm shooting for sometime next month, about the middle of it, mid-week is preferred (due to custody/scheduling issues). Looks like Wednesday, February 14, is "go" day.
Help me keep focused, like an arrow hitting a target. An arrow shot from a bow, drawn by a naked winged baby. A target about mid-chest, shaped roughly similar to this: <3 . although rotated 90 degrees counter-clockwise.
Anyway, I figure that, to calm down any possibility of hard feelings, I'd bake her a cake. I think her favorite is dark chocolate. I seem to remember baking her one of these about a year ago and it went over quite well.
Of course, if an opportunity presents itself before that date, I'll take it. It's just that, given the choice between bringing up the sex-less marriage talk, and, say, sticking red-hot needles in my eyes, it's a no-brainer. Fire up that needle kiln.
