akalily - I am NOT the OW, have never been OW

[cat03]

I don't know what kind of misunderstaning happenned related w/your name, but I'm sorry to hear you don't feel confortable posting, but DO whatevery you feel is right for you and your H. I have to dissagree w/you H, you need someone to talk to, a friend or a family member, you can't be denied the right to do so, I'd be a basket case had it not been for a great coworker who was there for me when I called and cried and told her I couldnt' go on anymore and she'd talke me down and pray w/me.
I choose not to tell all my friends nor family about the separation or the A, which turned out to be the best. Not everyone needs to know, but I still think you need someone to turn to when you are feeling bad, I don't understand why your H is so against you journaling here. Then again, this is YOUR choice, ok? it's your healing and you do what's best for you hon.

It's great you see a C, I hope you are able to move on. It's been 7 mths since I learned of the PA, and rigth now I'm at a better place, i've moved on and the hurt is not as stingting, it's a different kind of hurt, more of a sadness, of a realization that I let my H down, that I rejected him in such a way that he didnt' see anyother way but to leave me (the A happened later)

I pray you two are able to talk past the hurt and that you are able to let go and face your fears and forgive him, then the mental images will not have such power over you.