Thanks for your help. I am doing much better. I am beginning to truly focus on myself. I have realized, with the help of some reading and external events, that I need to focus on making myself happier. I am not normally a mopey, morose person. Presenting myself this way (even part of the time) is not helping my chances with my wife or how I will feel if things don't work out.
I am letting myself focus on the fact that I will be alright even if the divorce happens. I don't want it to, but everything will be o.k. I am perhaps able to think this way because deep down I truly believe that the divorce will come.
Having said this, we still aren't in mediation (at least until January...still not scheduled) and we are both being nice to each other (my wife even asked me to go to dinner Saturday...along with the kids...not a big breakthrough as she wants to be friends afterwords).
Who knows what will happen. I can't do much to change things with the exception of continuing what I'm doing and trying some minor 180s. I guess what will be will be.
I'm still interested in your thoughts on goals and actions. I can't tell you how much I have appreciated your feedback.
