I know....It is funny because I got an email today that said someone would tell me that they loved me by this evening....
The sad thing is that I am sitting here crying because I can't get that from the one person I should be hearing it from.
I am so scared that he will go through with filing for seperation in which I don't agree with at all. I am also scared that he is going to show up tonight to see the kids and I won't know how to act. I feel like if I am as compassionate to him as I have, that isn't going to show him anything. I don't know how to be with him. I do love him more than anything but I just don't know what the right way to be around him is.
Oh, and I also found out that she is a trust fund baby. She told me that she was going to give H money to give me for support while he was off work.... I told her not to bother. It is his responsibility.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
