Kansha, I can hear your weariness and feel the pain in your post. Hugs to you, honey!!
It sounds to me like he still has a lot of anger (and other issues) to work through, and it will take him a while longer. But at least at this point, he appears to be making the effort. And I would say he knows, maybe not in his consciousness, but at least subconsciously, that he wants to be with you.
You haven't earned your "sainthood" for nothing, my dear, so if you love him, don't throw in the towel just yet. Try to keep helping him along, because I do think he's making progress.
I don't mean to be minimizing your feelings, either, so please don't take this that way. I know how badly you want, need, and DESERVE to feel loved, and how long it has been since he's made you feel that way. No one would blame you if you decided to pack it in and head your own way--but I don't think you really want to do that. You sound discouraged, but I know you're a fighter. Why would you give up NOW?
