Everytime I recall how my EA turned PA, I wish I could slap myself. I was sitting in the car while the OM went to pay for the hotel room. I kept on telling myself, I can not. So what do I do, I tell myself nothing is going to happen. I can control the situation. I didn't. How can anyone be so stupid?
I deserve the way my H is treating me. I should be thankful he still wants to be friends. Even if not the kind of friends he makes plans with or calls.
Am I just being selfish by staying over at his place and acting as a constant reminder of betrayal? Perhaps I should just go back to staying with my parents and visiting DD during the day. But with my current work schedule, I do not see much of H except on the weekends. When school begins, I will even be see him less.
