Guys and gals. I only recently joined the boards and I am the BS - definitely NOT an OW.
VC seemed to reply to me as the OW - Said that that I was 'back' on the boards with again. I didn't understand it. I don't know another lily on the board but I am very new here. My name is Susan and Susan means Lily - nothing more. I guess I couldn't have a more ill-chosen name.
I am a 'new' lily as Tom said, but I am an entirely DIFFERENT physical being.
i came for help, for support, for understanding, on the suggestion of JoAnn my MC through this website.
I won't be posting here again though. I'll read but not write. My husband didn't seem to like the fact that I was posting and I'm trying to not tick him off anymore than my incessant questionning and lack of trust already does. He's always told me to never put anything in writing so I guess this is just an example. Like not talking about marital problems with friends or family. It just feels like there is no one to talk to sometimes.
I was just trying to find someone safe to talk to and I don't feel right asking for money to go to an IC in addition to the $ we pay for C here. I was just trying to find some sanity in an insane situation where I found myself not knowing the man I fell in love with. Where I found myself not being able to believe the only person on the Earth I had totally believed and believed in. The OW who posted really did hit a nerve with me and I guess I should never have answered her on the board.
I didn't know that I wasn't supposed to post 'after' someone. I guess I didn't read the rulebook that closely. I apologize and will get out of your hair.
Cat - thank you for the advice you offered me on my few posts. It was wonderful reading your threads. I felt not so alone and not so hopeless or helpless. I appreciate your kindness and your care. Your suggestions had given me hope.
Thank you and I wish the best to all of you in your Rs.
