Dont know if I should come out of the dark a little and see what happens or not....doubt that it would do much good.
We were making good positive talk until I blew up the first part of this month then we havn't talked hardly any since. Before blow up I started us talking and she was willing after I started.
But with this D comming up in days what do I have to lose? I kinda feel that there r still things that I would like to say/talk about before this thing is final.
I know there is no advoiding this D within this ammount of time.
Our anniversery is the day before the D. Part of me has this thought of asking her for that night together for our anniversery one more last night together to talk. I really dont know what she would say if I asked her to. But what do I have to lose?
Also have (probaly better) thought to go to her on anniversery and just tell her sorry that it didnt work and goodby.
then its probably best that I dont even ackwoledge her that day unless maybe she does me.
i said to heck with it and emailed her an email. I did good job with DBin in my email. didn't beg or pleaded just spoke from my heart and said a lot. i was expecting nothing back at all but got a fairly positive response back from her...even ended with a "thanks for the talk" and with a memory of us from about a year ago.
Of course with every positive thing that has happened in my stich, there is a negative thing backing it up. Today I saw the history on her computer and she has been picking out wedding dresses and bought a ring from a diamond store. Thought that I would better come here and vent before making any wrong moves.
She still swears to me that her and OM had no relationship what so ever before her filing for divorce and that I was the only one on her mind until after she filed. She ask "why lie about it now our relationship is over". Well I do belive that to have a relationship with OM is a BIG factor in filing even though she swears it wasn't. I don't know......why would she lie about it now?
If she is telling the truth about nothing being there before, then their relationship is more less and rebound type of thing and she is more less using him. Then why the ring?
When asked if they are serious all she can state is that she "likes" him. same thing when asked if she is in love with him. She has told me that she shouldn't be with him because she is just going to hurt him too and that she thinks that it would never work between them.
I do know her and do belive that she doesn't really like him as she just likes the new of the relationship. I do belive that their relatioship is doomed from the way it has started. I do believe that it will run its course....but where does the ring come from?
How can she ask for a divorce, even when the M was salvagable, and say that she just needs space and time apart and hope to work things out just not now......then in just two months come cut and dry about us and so cold and not feeling any pain. And in two months become engaged to this OM.
I know it sounds like that they had a relationship/affair before her filing but I know that if they did have anything going on before it was very very limited.
