It took me a few minutes to figure out how to post...but I think we're good now. First, I've toured the town, and I'm glad to see Jack's back for an update and possibly an extended stay?? We missed you! It's been a busy couple of months, with ups and downs Work has been busy, commuting tough. I've lost almost 20 lbs- 19.5 this morning - since he left (had hit an all time high then). Still haven't got all of that Depo out of me, but it's getting there. I still think about why why why...but not nearly as often, and for the most part I accept the answers I come up with. He's been calling (5 times in 5 months) and last week 1 email(for me to call). I have not returned any of them. He's calling because he wants something, I am not eluded by that fact. He doesn't care if I need anything, am alive and well, or any related good will reasons. I've found out that basically most people have written him off. He's either lied to them, about me of other things, or hasn't paid them (funny, that's such a huge catalyst for people to write you off, where leaving your family is poo-pooed). Regardless, he's pretty much on his own right now. I'm sure he's got a new bunch of "friends" by now, but eventually they will tire of him. As she will. I don't believe he has a job, and I think she'll get tired of that too.
But all this is just to give you an update. I am doing well. I miss things occasionally, but not him so much. I don't concern myself with his goings-on. I curse him when my car doesn't work-lol. That's about it. The D is still dragging on - really through no effort of mine- he seems to be the "foot-dragger" most times, although he was all gung ho from the beginning.
I had a date. It was a dud, but that's ok. It was a practice really, to get my head in the right frame of mind. I have an idea of what I am looking for, and I want to prepare myself for when I am ready to grab hold of it. It may take awhile, but that's ok. I've learned patience if nothing else.
I'm still here though, because my friends are here, and I've learned too much to walk away now.
Oh...time is just too short- back to work- be back later... DBH
