Thank you Nicola for the support. I am going to be still and stay dark. That is all I can do for now. I don't want to be the one to file but I am not really that sad about h doing it. Maybe because I don't believe he will at least any time soon or maybe because I need it to be done.
I was torn up about the email because it sounded so cold. He also sounded so arrogant. But he is so ignorant.(among other things).He actually said the girls are lucky to have me and him. WTF??? Lucky to have a father that abandons them. He also said he thanks God everyday for his girls. Yet he abuses the privelage of being their father. He is mocking God. He does not yet realize what that means. He will not get off easy that is for sure.
I am sure that ow is making him happy right now. I don't think he can stand to be without her. She is the drug and he is addicted and therefore convinced himself that she is the love of his life. He is so deep in replay. I guess it is truly full blown mlc.
But I see now how I was being prepared for this. I have been grieving the end of m for some time now.
I think I need to take some time away from the board. I need to regroup my thoughts and feelings.
