Things around here are going...no drama, nothing exciting.
I'm working on my new tasks...found a counselor and had my first session yesterday. Ugh, going through the whole story of our R made me realize just how weak I've been in my M--I did not stand for my family and demand respect from H for so many years (I thought that being nice and supportive was enough). In a lot of ways, I'm still not standing strong--walking on eggshells for fear of undoing any progress we've made. So that's goal #1 on my list with the C: learning how to set boundaries and change my behavior in a loving, yet respectful and firm way.
This morning I'm fighting with the fear/anxiety associated with digging it all back up, but I also had the opportunity to visit with my sister yesterday...haven't seen her in over a year, and it felt really good to be able to tell her that I'm doing GREAT. I'm so much more happy in my own skin, and realize my own power to direct my experiences. So I'm working on paying more attention to that inner voice!
