Cat - I think it is maybe exactly as you said and I have really tried to reassure him that things will be OK. He agrees with me though that everything else is great appart from this area and that he would also class things as perfect once we are kissing etc. It was great to hear him say that! I'm just scared he's going to decide to leave because he can't be like that with me anymore.
Hi L - You're right it did feel like a huge step from the spare room. I do keep forgetting how far we've come in just a few weeks. H and I were discussing this last night actually and its like I pointed out to him - I keep forgetting how far we've come because things are going so so very well. He says he needs to think about it. I said I'm scared that if he thinks about it he'll leave and he said he hasn't come back to fail which nearly made me cry! I know I have to be patient some more its just very hard because we are getting on so well and having a great time and it seems like a natural progression to me and its hard to not think of it. Being with him and not arguing like we used to makes me love him more and more.
