Maybe I am supposed to start a the begining so I can see what I missed.
Or maybe HE is supposed to see what HE missed. Either way, being still is really your only option right now unless you want to file, which I don't think you do.
Mermaid, I know that you want closure here; I do too and I've not been at this nearly as long as you have. I so admire your strength. Please know that your friends here will always support your decisions: to stand, to go darker, to file. It's up to you.
~Nicola
Life isn't about finding yourself; it's about creating yourself My thread: Trusting God's Plan
