Olive, You are going thru a difficult time. I'm sorry to hear that. I'm glad you found this website--you will get some excellent advice. My impression is that you're not ready to give-up on the M.
I would recommend getting the book "Divorce Remedy." It will help to ground you. You will be asked to think about what you want in the M. You will write those in terms of realistic goals. You will be asked to consider telling your H what you want. You will learn different solution-focused techniques to experiement with. You will be asked to identify behavioral patterns that you persist in that only serve to add to your suffering, and don't solve R problems.
Posting here is helpful in terms of being part of an online supportinve community, but reading the book gives you a framework from which to work from. This is empowering in that it gets you away from passively reporting events to attempting to influence them, via self-management of your own behaviors.
Concerned_Listener
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
