What can I do without totally pushing him away? It just sucks because I do love him and he knows it and I feel like he's taking advantage of the fact that he knows that I really don't want D.
Per my request, he doesn't talk on the phone or text in the house (I sneak looks at the messages when he's sleeping). But, that doesn't stop OW from texting. It's not like he's out all night with her but is an hour or so late from work a few time/wk.. He's stealing time from our D...
It's just so dang depressing. I don't know why I even try to work. I can't concentrate on anything but my messed up world. I feel like leaving for a while but can't because of D3. I feel like telling everyone I know about it but our MC (what a joke!) says not to...
I just go home and live in the twilight zone where everything "seems" fine, hugs and kisses and ILU's from H. And, then OW sends a text.. I really am going insane, aren't I? I really do think it's harder because he is all nicey nice to me and I to him... strange...
