When I was a teenager I ran with some tough "burn-out" girls for a while. There was this one really tough girl who was a friend of a friend. One day we were all hanging out behind the high school and this tough girl went up to another girl and said "I'd as soon see you dead as ever see you talking to (my boyfriend) again.". I actually broke up with my second boyfriend/lover when I was a teenager because a tougher girl (sort of a Pamela Anderson type) wanted him. I was sort of the pet nerd of these girls who were mostly somewhat older than me. They took me to parties and I did their homework for them.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
