Thanks, hd.

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I'll admit if somebody suggests I go do something, and I have a great time, I will get a little annoyed if they later say "I KNEW you would like it."


Yes, that is his attitude-- and it may be a factor in this scenario-- and yes it is very immature.

And especially ironic because one of the things that made me the happiest about it is that it is something he will do on his own that I will not know the content of (not supposed to talk about what goes on at AA meetings), he will do it with another male friend, and there is no DIRECT benefit to me (except the aforementioned trickle-down effect).

But even if it was a factor, there were ways of quashing me gently instead of with his usual two-by-four.

I keep going back to Paul Simon, "I know you see through me, just give me some tenderness beneath your honesty."

I'm not going to kill myself. I just consider thoughts of it to be a bad sign. As if it's the only way out. I know it's not the only way out-- it's just that that's what comes to mind (Mojo, I'm sure this is the way your H's brain operates, too.) There is absolutely NO danger of me actually doing this. I promise.