Mojo is 42

[MJontheMend]

See, if you were just more like me, you would go into the day/week/month EXPECTING it to suck, and then you would never be disappointed.

Well, fact is you are luckier than me because at least MsHD doesn't set you up for the disappointment by making promises or I.O.Us that won't be delivered on. One thought I was having this morning is that I would like my H to make just one commitment to me in our relationship and then stick to it. Anything. This really isn't about sex except to the extent that his lack of willingness to commit to a regular sex life bums me out more than the rest. I mean if I were to ask him "Will you commit to taking a hike with me every Sunday?" or "Will you commit to keeping your lousy job for the next 6 mos.?" or "Will you commit to helping me put the kids through college?" or "Will you commit to giving me a hug every Saturday night?" the answer to the question or his resultant behavior would be the same. He might choose to do any of these things but he won't commit to any of them. It makes me feel like I'm not really in an adult relationship. It's like we're two toddlers in the same pen but not able to function at a level beyond parallel play. Actually, at the moment it's worse than that. It's like I can't even engage in my own parallel play because the other toddler is throwing a tantrum.