she's left my life has ended

[nickfromtheuk]

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Having been in an abusive marriage, I will tel lyo uthat I would agree to forgive you whatever you did becasue I learned before that you would smack me around if I didn't tell you what you wanted.

She forgives me thakfully because she knows I have never raised my hand to her before and that my shame in reacting the way I did almost crushed me. I have always been a gentleman and have grown up beleiving you open doors for women etc. I know she forgives me because she says things like its not as bad as what i did to you and i probably deserved it. I reply truthfully in that no one what ever they have done deserves to suffer that. So I know she believes me and she is not fearful of me. She certainly is not telling me what I want to know because she is scared I'll beat the crap out of her. She has told me several times over the last couple of days she does not want to tell me something I ask and I just have to respect that. Although she Is in MLC she also very sorry for betraying me. She hoped above everything else that I never found out. Thats not the behavior of some one who doesn't love you any more.

Unfortunately the situation we are in means she will have to come home if she likes it or not.

Nick