she's left my life has ended

[nickfromtheuk]

Lissett

Um Peaches! the above words, are um totally never going to get you in bed with your W again! So cut it out!

calm down honey!

No they are not and I have not uttered a harsh word or asked who he is since. I already know he is one of the parents at our sons school and to be honest I'm more angry about the fact he played my wife than anything else. Despite what she is going through she is the most beautiful wonderful geourgeous, sexy and funny human being in the whole wide world. Did I mention that she is seriously fit. I better calm down I'm getting hot under the old collar. The fact that he was only in it for the chase and the conquest and after he had 4 months of by weekly fun with her, screwing with her emotions and making her believe he loved her just so he could have her when he wanted. Thats what really pisses me off. That he could turn her world and as a by product mine and the kids worlds upside down and not give a dam about her feelings. To pretend his wife found out just so he could dump her. It didn't stop him going back for second helpings, just a couple more goes. She does not deserve that. She is wonderful and kind and is a lady under all the MLC rubbish floating around her head. That's what annoys me. Other than that I have no feelings for him. My wife does not want me to make a fuss or a scene and I can't blame her. She feels foolish enough without me beating him up not that I wouldn't love to but that is what she wants. I thought she was protecting him and to an extent before she realized he was making a fool out of her she did want to protect hin because she is grieving for him. I'm happy to do what ever she wants with regards to him. I even know who he is although I haven't told her that because I don't want to cause her anymore stress or push her away further. If she knew I knew who he was she would just get wound up about it.

I honestly and truthfully have no feelings positive or negative about the affair. It enraged me she seemed to want to protect him from a scene and a beating but now I've opened my ears and listened properly to her I can hear that she is saying no one at the school knows and she wants it kept that way. She does not want people in the school thinking she is easy or into affairs. So leave it. We discuss only what she wants to discus about it if it comes up. The only thing I have discussed with her is the holes in his story and how she has been played. She needed to hear that because she has feelings for him whilst he cares not a jot about her.

Anyway. I will not and have not been angry with her although we did have a heated talk this morning about her coming home, which she has to do otherwise we both face bankruptcy and she faces a life in bedsit or bed and breakfast for the next year or so before moving into a dingy little flat in the middle of a sink estate with no money to make it nice, buy carpets or anything. So unfortunately she has to come back already, which I know is gonna play havoc with her MLC and her journey through it.

But that is the little piece of the world my wife and I share. It runs totally opposite to what she needs to do to get through the MLC like leaving. I guess I'm gonna have to find some way to DB etc and help her through it in this difficult situation but her choice is live in poverty or live comfortably but work to find happiness in our marriage. Its a real tuffy but we absolutely have no choice.

Nick