Thanks for your post. You are totally right I have been violent towards her for the first time in 31 years. She says she feels so sorry and ashamed for letting the children down and destroying our marriage. She says she deserved what she got from me so not to worry about it and she honestly forgives me. I could never ever stoop to such depths again. I cried tears of shame the other day over what I did to her.
When I saw her last Sunday and Monday I was extremely gentle towards her as I have always been. Of course I begged for forgiveness and swore it will never ever happen again. Begged for forgiveness yesterday evening as well.
I hope things start to go in the right direction for you bill. I am so blessed by your determination. I know how hard it is someday s but I guess time is all of ours to heal and be renewed.
Nick
me 41 her 40 kids (3) 19, 16 and 6 married 20 years, together 31 years since childhood
bomb Aug 06, affair started june 06 and still going on
