Thanks all for your advice, I appreciate it. As I said, I guess I am just afraid still. Even tho things are going great, and he gives me all the reassurance in the world - it's still hard...I will try my best to knock it off.
Anyway, thought I'd share the card he gave me for Christmas. One of my friends thinks I need to tattoo this card on my butt, as a reminder. lol!
Here goes:
You and I are connected in a way that goes beyond romance, beyond friendship, beyond what we've ever had before.
It has defied time, distance, and changes in ourselves and in our lives.
And it has defied every explanation except one: purely and simply, we're soul mates. I can't explain it. I just feel it.
It's there in the way my spirit subtly lifts whenever we talk, how the sound of your voice brings me home in a way I can't explain.
It's in the delight I feel when we laugh at exactly the same things.
When I'm with you, it's like a tiny part of the universe shifts into the place it's supposed to be, and all is right with the world.
These things and so many more, have made me understand that this is a once in a lifetime, forever connection that could only exist between you and me.
And deep in my soul, I know that our relationship is a rare gift, one that will bring us an extraordinary happiness all through our lives.
(end of card)
I hope you know how much I love you and love our family. We will get thru this together.
XO XO Love, H
I love this man SO much - it is truly amazing how much I feel for him.
Me: 38 H: 39 DS: 6 DD: 3 Married 7 1/2 years - together for 10 Bomb - 12/17/05 MOW Bomb - 12/25/05 Separated and H adamantly wanted a D: 1/16/06 H moved back: 8/06