Some Advice Needed Please :)

[fandgmom]

Hi all,

Not sure if anyone on this forum remembers me because I used to post in MLC. I know BND knows my whole sitch...

Anyway...H and I have been back together since end of Aug. '06. After having been separated since January of last year. You can find my old posts if you're interested.

Here's a quick summary tho:

Me: 36
H: 37
Married: 6 years - together for 8
2 kiddos - DS 5 yrs & DD 20 Mos.

Separated: 1/16/06

Interim: BIG ROLLER COASTER RIDE FROM HE!!

H moved back home: End of August '06

So, we have been piecing since the end of August last year. Things have been going really well for us. We have both grown and changed so much through all of this. As painful as it all was, I am glad that it happened because it forced me and H to look at ourselves & make improvements and changes and now I am so thankful that we are at the point we are. He just said to me the other day, that "yeah, we took a pretty crazy route to get here, but all that matters is that we are together & our marriage is stronger and better than ever" I couldn't agree more.

He is affectionate with me, tells me he loves me constantly, tells me how happy he is with us all the time. I'm not kidding, things are really, really good. We both take time for ourselves, I still go out with friends once a week or once every two weeks. We go on dates about every 2 weeks and have FUN!

What I need some guidance on and really I just need someone to tell me to STOP doing this & how I can stop...

SNOOPING! I have a habit of checking his email on a daily basis (unbeknownst to him) I don't ever find anything but I am consumed with doing it. I want to stop it. But how can I? Does anyone have any suggestions on how to get me to stop?? I feel terrible that I do it. I feel like I invade his privacy by going in there all the time and always "checking" on him. He has not given me a reason (since we have been piecing) to not trust him. But I can't help it, I still do it. I want to stop. I want to not think about that anymore. I hate it!

Any advice? Thanks in advance!!!

Love & Hugs to all!