He said he's seeing someone new

[Ophelia]

So, today's developments.

Remember how I mentioned in a previous post that H plays OzTag, (a form of touch football)? Well my brother and his girlfriend play on the same team as H. To be honest, my brother has been seeing more of H recently than I have.

Anyway, I just got a call from dad, saying that my brother had gotten a cryptic txt from H about how he might not want to play on the team anymore, considering the drama that is going on between us right now.

Frankly, I'd been hoping to spare my family the ordeal of knowing H is now an adulterer, and I told dad that I'd been hoping they wouldn't have to get involved, but now I guess I didn't have a choice but to tell them.

So I told him that H has got himself a girlfriend. I also said that this doesn't change my mind about being committed to saving the marriage, no matter how long I have to put up with this kind of behaviour.

I said that frankly I wasn't all that surprised, seeing as how I firmly believe H is in a MLC, and this is really just a classic symptom. Dad actually kinda agreed, and didn't sound too shocked himself, and he seemed to indicate that mum would feel the same. Seems they've been discussing it, and came to a similar conclusion that I did.

I said that I'd spoken to MIL this weekend, and that she agrees that H and I should talk about it, but H doesn't seem interested in talking about anything.

Finally, I said that if I thought he was acting this way with a clear mind, I wouldn't be as willing as I am to forgive. But seeing as how I firmly believe he's all kinds of messed up in the head, I'm actually really kinda sad for him, because I'm quite sure this isn't the kind of person he wants to be. Dad agreed with me. So here's hoping my family are willing to be as forgiving as I intend to be.

So now the only person who doesn't know is my best friend. She sent me a txt last night to see how I was going, and I jut said we were fighting, but didn't give specifics. She said to let her know if I wanted to talk about it. Now, really, she shouldn't judge him too much, because the guy she ultimately got engaged to, (though they ultimately broke up) not only cheated on her, but he got the chick pregnant, (but she then had a miscarriage), and she still forgave that. But I already know that she's not really happy with the way H has been hurting me, so this might push her over the edge.

While I still have hope of working this marriage out in the long run, I really didn't want the people closest to me knowing this, because now it's not just me who has to forgive and forget, it's everyone else as well. It just makes it all 100x harder.

Anyone out there who prays, I could use a few extras right now, asking that God will bestow forgiving hearts on the people I love.