Thanks Olive & Cat--I'm holding my own today...not winning, but keeping my head above water.
Quote: right now he does not see that, he still can't believe it.
I have wondered this myself: if he can't bring himself to the step of repentance/forgiveness yet, how can he accept my forgiveness of him? I need to slow down, lower my expectations, and step up my GAL.
I think he's avoiding it more than he thinks about it. And avoiding leaves the door open for all the sneaky crap.
It is a fine line, no doubt between fantasy and reality, for both of us. I know in my mind everything I need to do: challenge my emotions, focus on all the great things he's doing, and live happy. I'm pulling myself back up to that--still have a bit of a knot in my chest, but I'll beat this.
