I'm fighting the fear this morning. Though I'm trying to focus on the good things in my life, the hurtful thoughts keep breaking through...I am awesome--why am I not good enough for him? why does he feel the need to continue a relationship with her? what does she offer him that I don't? why can't he be open and honest? why does he think it's okay to hide from me? what thought processes in his head are allowing him to be so destructive? why doesn't he want to figure it out and fix it? am I enabling him? will he do this to himself and me and our family forever?
AAAUUGH! I'm going to go get busy, and get myself under control now. His actions are not about me. They're about him. I choose to not let them bring me down. Too bad the choice doesn't make follow through easier.
