Ugh. Discoveries keep falling on my head these last few days. I know for certain that H is hiding many things from me, and I feel like I've been thrown back to square one. After so much time and effort!
The good thing is that I am able to look at all of this from a fairly detached point of view and ask myself, does what I know/want to say impact my sitch positively or negatively?
I feel good inside despite the disappointments of this week. I do prefer the truth to fantasy.
The question dogging me tonight is this:
If the current goal is to have H choose our family and move back in, HOW do I positively assert my feeling that I do not want him back until he is ready to be COMPLETELY open and honest with me? I want him to share feelings, complete truths, passwords...NO SECRETS.
If the ball is fully in his court, how do I set conditions on his return? I realize I may be putting the cart before the horse...but I think it's time to decide what my deal-breakers are, and be laying the groundwork.
