Thank you for the virtual hugs! As for the books - I've read them both. I guess I need to put them into practice. ALso I need to find the answers to the questions that you've asked me.
I do not want to use intimacy to 'keep' my husband. I want it to be a celebration of our relationship.
We've started talking about separation. It makes me sick to my stomach but part of me is ok with it.
I guess my mixed feelings are normal but they also are driving me insane.