I really feel for you and I can understand how hard this must be. Have you considered any kind of hypnotherapy or NLP to try to get over your initial fears?

Hey, my H also complained about frequency of ML while he was working in a foreign country Mon-Fri. It's aint rocket science. You're not around, you don't get any.

You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him discover it in himself.
Galileo Galilei