i would like to know how you are coping right now. if you have time please go over my sitch( my infedility, pls help). don't know how to attach it here though.
i pray that we both keep hanging on.
r - I take it one day at a time. There are good days and bad days. There are good hours and bad hours. There are times I think he's going to get soooo angry that he's going to hit me. But then, things calm down and we are able to find some peace for awhile. He admitted to me that it's his decision. He's the only one who can decide if he forgives me or not. I can make the choice easier (by getting mad back and arguing) or harder (by being loving and gentle and kind). Bottom line - I hang in there for the tidbits that he does throw me, but I am trying not to be desperate/pathetic.
We are spending a HUGE amount of time together. Partially, because he doesn't trust me and partially because I don't want to be away from him at all.
What's weird is that we don't have kids. Most everyone here on the board are here with kids and saying that they at least have them to turn to for strength. Because of my ambition (and A) I never had any kids. Now, I see that I missed out on a LARGE part of life. And I sincerely regret it.
