I totally understand! I just think it is not something to wait around for. Apology or repentance of sorts might come some day or NEVER.
The old H did a lot of stupid things. But he always owned up to them and apologized and promised to make things better. I know, I know, but he really did try. When MLC hit - it was a whole different ballgame.
Part of me believes that even if he regrets (and he has been known to admit that to the kids or earlier on to me) that he can't talk about it much. Because in doing so - he admits that "ow" is wrong. Now, they are married. He would feel he was doing her a disservice in admitting ANYTHING to me. His loyalty changed the day he moved out. I found it so hard to believe but in his mind it made everything ok. SO, apologizing just wouldn't fit his scenario.
Does that make any sense to you? In my case I think it is a big part of it.
