Yes, you remind me of something I used to say when I was over on this side of the board. How can I make sense out of something that makes no sense at all? And there in lies the rub. I am one of those people who always has to figure it out. Too analytical perhaps. But I always felt it was easier to move forward when I understood my past. This one is just mind boggling as you know.
The strange part is this - I really DON'T care about what he is doing unless it affects the kids or me. I used to obsess over him and maggot. Don't give a rat's a$$ anymore. I just don't think about it. I don't miss him. Not one little bit. I DO miss having a complete family but that's just not in the cards ever again.
No, I totally believe that my life is better without him. Now, if he would just go away - that would be good.
