New here - W unwilling to work on it

[30andLost]

I think I had a little slip today. I only 'think' because I have not read DB yet. You guys let me know how bad it was. I was watching the kids this weekend at our house while the W stayed with a friend. She had to come home to grab her work shoes before she headed off to work.

While she was there I kind of slipped. I asked her if she was ready to talk about us yet. I made sure not to word it in an attacking manner like are you 'willing' to talk about us yet. She said no. I then slipped again and asked her if she had thought at all about us yet. She said yes she thinks about us all of the time, she just isn't ready to make a decision yet. So I stopped myself.

Then a few minutes later. I told her that I just wanted to let her know that I am working on my issues so that I never do this to her again. I also told her that if she thought that there was any hope for us, to remember that I am working hard on fixing myself. She then told me "Well you did do it and you can't undo it." Then she told me not to rush her into a decision, and I assured her that I wasn't, but I just wanted her to know I am working on fixing myself.

That was the end of the R talk. Then we were pleasent to each other and talked of other things in the few minutes before she left.

SO how bad did I screw up?

The patience thing and waiting is going to kill me. I need to be strong, so strong.