so understand this , for the longest time my H was back, I kept expecting him to say he still wanted to try it w/the ow, to tell me "this isn't really working" , etc etc, all sorts of negative scenarios.

Yup..Yup..Yup.. This is ALL NORMAL. H said that he ended things with ow for good in April 2006, that's when he asked us to join him in Country X. We moved over and started piecing officially in August 2006... Piecing not for long, but still having those horrible negative thoughts...which I have to LEARN HARD to shooo them awaaaaay....

One Step at a time, girl...