I soooo appreciate that you have shared this....you will help so many by sharing. Some folks just feel they have to hide it all inside. Especially if they've spent time as a success on the board. Then something happens to shake it.
One of my closest friends at work in this past year and a half, had a baby, his wife got ovarian cancer and had to go through six months of chemo, his mom shot herself during this time, and he just found out his brother committed suicide right before the holidays. He is the only one left (his father passed away around the time I met him a little over 10 years ago.).
Sometimes you have things that overload your senses, your nervous system. Sharing how you get through them teaches someone else how to get through it better than someone telling them how to get through it.
Your honesty is humbling.
You're amazing.
I hope we can be there for you, too.
And you WILL get through it.
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001
