Lil et al:

I did say Adios, didn't I? Well... sorry, didn't finish my thought. Adios for a time. For a needed break that we all take.

It is embarrassing at the very least to share this state I've found myself in with you all, but there is still, and always will be that side of me who wields the Pointy Witch Shoes, and even I do not escape them.

Everybody, at some point in their life, will hit bottom, and it seems to me that I've been hitting bottom on a consistent basis for the last year. That's fine. Nothing wrong with it. Thank God something comes along at some point that catches your attention and tells you, "okay, enough of this. Let's just stop this right now... and if you can't do it on your own, go get some help."

I've hit that point.

I have to get away from here because I use this board, at times, as a diversion. A reason not to do something else, to avoid my life or my own problems. That's okay, from time to time... but I have too many forms of this SSM board in my life, that when put together, are just not healthy.

I posted this not to garner attention, but as my first step in accountability. I'll post updates from time to time, sure, but hopefully, if you all see me hanging around the water cooler here too much, you'll bust me on it and send me on my way. In that way, you can all help me.

I cannot tell you how much I appreciate the support and empathy you've all shown, really. But the tough love is needed, too, eh?

No one here knows me, nor do you see my daily life... but I've let myself slip beyond what is healthy, by anyone's standards. The only way any of you will know that is the case is if I tell you. Just the mere process of saying it out loud... helps.

Chrome, you know where I am. I know where you are. I'm as scared and doubtful as you are... <nod>. As anyone on here has been, at some point in their lives. It just isn't an excuse, and we ALL KNOW how much I hate excuses.

So. Adios FOR NOW. And, again, if you see my face around here again... I've left my Pointy Witch Shoes by the door. Use them.

Corri