ok so even though i already had the general idea that h would not be comming here tonight it still bothered me, didn't really bother me that he's not comming what bothered me was the fact that he waited til 5pm to let me know. as if avoiding it.
I really do wonder why h chooses to spend these nights alone in his appt eating canned soup (hey i just made homemaid chicken soup and grilled cheese) and sleeping alone when he could be here eating good food and sitting in front of a warm fire on a crappy rainy night.

I will still light a fire I will sit and enjoy it and read my book.
I will worry not what h is doing or not doing (hell knowing him he'll be asleep by 8) I will enjoy my me time and hell i'll even enjoy the extra leg room in bed, (I actually had gotten very used to having to whole bed to myself and liked it)
LL still but wondering how long it will take before h comes home or i give up.