here's an interesting change.... before all this crap I would call h, get no answer call his other phone get no answer then beep him and be annoyed that i had to call so many #'s to reach him... think h has gotten a taste of his own ways with me now that i don't call and am not always available to him.... h just called... i was in the process of cleaning the playroom (again!!) so i didn't answer... less than 3 min later the phone rings AGAIN and it's him and i'll bet if i go out to my cell phone there'll be a call on it from him.... odd why call and call and call again???? he did leave a message the first time so wouldn't you assume i'd call back when i got it????
could be he really wanted to say hello to me or could be just checking to make sure i'm home and wont be in the area he's in to see ow??? naaaaaa! get out of my head bad little thoughts... well ya know the way i see it is hey if he is seeing ow then it is his problem and he will suffer (with his own guilt) because of it, I will live my life and be happy whatever h ultimately does.
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still no mention of wether or not he's comming tonight??? asuume he's not, hey then that way i will actually be able to read my book club book!!! plus i am getting tired of all the sex i need a break.
i need a break.
