thanx chuck,
it does only seem to be two nights a week that h doesn't come here, they are typically sun and wed nights. I'm not all that dissapointed that h didn't come last night just would have been a nice surprize and 180 for him.
now here's the dilema.... after h's not comming wed night i went out thurs night, not to spite him but because i already had plans to go out that night....
one of my girlfriends just called to see if i could go to dinner with her she has some things to talk to me about in regard to her life.... h is comming tonight but hasn't said anything about "us" time, i don't want to go out to spite him but I would like to go out and talk with gf.... thing is he will not have any problem with it... or at least will not say so... is not his way... here's an example.. in a few weeks i'm going to a wedding... as a guest... and staying at the hotel... h does not ask with who and seems to not be bothered. says it would bother him but what can he do about it if i want to go i will go he cant stop me.. but to not even ask???
I will be a guest of my mother.. she figures i know everyone there while her bf doesn't so bringing me she'd had more fun.
the groom is my brothers best friend, and all the "fella's" will be there and they are all single... when i let h know the person i was going with was not one of them as he susspected but with my mom, he did say he was a little concerned simply because he assumes they know the sit and will try to warm up to me. (he is so foolish, they don't and wont go there with me) thing is h wouldn't outright say he was concerned til i asked. guess h is just a better dbr than me, and he never read the book!
LL
what is not fair is that even when i do take my space and go out to do things w/o h, I still come home at night and wake here in the am... even if it's a ride from where i am. when h wants his space he doesn't come here...
