well I attempted to go to church after son came in the house whining (pouty crying) that he had to go potty, he took off his sneakers and told me he didn't like the big blower daddy was using to blow the leaves, h asked me when i would be back, I asked what time he wanted to leave he says 1, oh that's nice the game isn't till 4, he want's to go watch all the other games!!! so lets see, h was planning to do the yard work yesterday afternoon (wich would have worked better as kids and i weren't home) but instead he ran late!! oh gee why did he run late, hmmmmm because while he was out and about doing his work (?) [censored] he decided to stop and get a bite to eat with his buddie at the 99 and have a few beers!! which meant he didn't get here til after 6 so no yard work so that means that the time he is spending here today is spent doing yard work instead of playing with son and then when yard work is done instead of playing with son he's running off to watch football with the same buddie whom he see's and plays with every single day!!! what's wrong with this picture?????
honestly I am annoyed with this crap!! he was doing a much better job at being a daddy when he wasn't "trying" to be my h. so maybe it's better if he's not my h. you know this buddie of his is a real pain in the ass, he called here at 9am and now just called again and probably called a few other times on h's cell while i wasn't paying attn. this is the buddie who got the tx to the superbowl and also the tx to the miami game, h also told me that he suggested they get drunk yesterday at lunch, I probably shouldn't complain about this buddie because maybe he will keep him away from ow, but it is really annoying to me!!!

what the hell is this life??????? h comes h goes h does pretty much whatever h wants to do. why during this "trying" time should I be on my best behaviour when h is not on his well if he is on his best behaviour then I guess maybe it's a case of that old song "if my best isn't good enough than how can it be good enough for two" well in this case there are three of us!!!

I would like a man who wants his family and puts them first, not a man who puts himself and his football first.
h has not spent but one sunday with his kids since he started "trying" and that sunday was still spent watching football and other people were here with him to "help" entertain the kids.
my life was better when h wasn't "trying" i had more freedom and h did more with the kids. not saying h has stopped being there for the kids but it does seem like in comming home h is getting his freedom back and i am loosing mine well on sundays at least.

in the infidelity section of dr, is says that the couple needs to spend "healing time" together, and though h and i are spending time together these sunday outings of his are not working for me, I understand that h wants to have a life and that football has always been and will always be a HUGE importance to him, BUT right now I just dont think it's very productive for him to be running off every sunday to watch GAMES with his buddie and leave his family sitting behind!!! it doesn't send a very good message to me and in turn i don't send a very good message to h. and honestly no matter what message i were to send h in regard to his football, h would still go and leave us!! pathetic thing is even if his team doesn't play football on sunday still comes before his family!!! I think the right thing to do if you want to watch the game with your buddie but want to try to be a family again would be to have buddie come to your house to watch the game, so sorry that we don't have that special channel that he has that gets you all the games, why don't you get it here, gee then you'd be happy cause you get to watch the game with your buddie and your w would be happy because you are still home with your family, that would be too easy though wouldn't it!!!!!
LL