What is gong on with your karaoke night? Did you attract any guest's attention?
Maybe you should bring your H to one of those nights out so you can show off to him some of your tunes. Nowadays a woman also has to come up with neat things to do or places to go with male to impress him, doesn't she?
Just a thought to keep you from those awful anxieties, if you would like to try.
had fun last night, went to the border for dinner (chicken quesadillas there are awesome!!!) then off to a place to sing and have fun.... h left a message on the cell hoping i was having fun and asked me to wake him when i got home to let him know i was safe, so i got home about 3 and woke him up went up to bed and cuddled, I could tell h was interested in more but was to tired to act so i got spooned and a bunch of kisses on the back of my neck. hmmmm! well h is comming over again tonight and since he let me know he'd pick up take out so we could hang out, I'll be staying home, if he can find a sitter for sat night he want's to take me out, probably just to a sports pub, but i don't mind I'm the one who told him about the place. so we shall see. LL
Great progress. You are in a fast forward mode. I am soooo happy for you. And a date this coming Saturday. Wow, this is starting to really look up. Keep it up.
And the gay bar.... do guys actually come dressed as pretty women? Or can you see through it all? Sooo glad you had a fun time there last night.
I'm jealous of H wanting to know if you're home safe and the cuddling. I hope one day soon.
We're off to Cape Cod tomorrow to close the cottage for the winter. H said tonight before he went out with high school buddies that we're going tomorrow and coming back Monday. A big surprise for me. I'll play it by ear.
What do you think of me suggesting we go to Foxwoods on the way to the Cape? Something fun? Any other ideas.
Hope you hae a great date tomorrow and are enjoying tonight.
i just fear it is too fast, I mean just a bit over a month ago h was still in d mode and now he's in major boyfriend commited r mode???
he's gone out to get the food, already lit a fire, already kissed me mucho and i had to tell him to go get the food (he's afraid I'll be asleep when he gets back after my late night ) h did his laundry last night here and each time he does I think, is he going to leave his stuff here??? at least some of it???? well not this time, the basket is on the bench by the back door ready to go, bummer, well i know it's stupid to think that anyway he wont just bring his stuff he'll ask if he can come home. I hope i can keep my mouth shut and just accept what i've got. it's really hard especially when he's being good, resentment sneaks in and then of course little thoughts of that person who's not supposed to exist in my mind anymore. ok I'll admit I have still snooped a bit at the cell phone and don't see anycalls... of course my susspisious mind says... so he uses the office phone or the other cell phone or doesn't call her but just stops by... then i think to myself what is different this time of trying from last years time of trying after discolsure of "friendship" hmmmm he doesn't live here, is talking to me more, is more relaxed, is MORE affectionate, and many more possitives sooooo that would tend to tell me that unlike last years time of "trying" when he was lying to me and still "involved" with her... things are different so she must be gone!!!! yes she's gone and also I've learned a few things not to complain about to keep peace. I never did like h comming home late... well i am alone all day with the kids so the day is long... then i would complain... now I say take your time no rush... hell even last night i got my mom to come watch the kids so i could leave when i wanted and not have to rush him home... so I am trying to do more than keep my mouth shut about ow, though thoughts of her do creep in.
don't have much more to say tonight. hope all is well with all you folks in db land. LL
LL, I am soo jealous, you are in a good place, you know what works and what does not. You know him better than anyone and if it feels right then go for it. My h is moving out this weekend, little by little, wants me to help, go shopping with him for some things. I am unsure if I should, as this is not how a couple who is seperating should "act".(I can't seem to let go of what people think). I want to help in any way. My friend at work hopes I don't become a doormat. H has never made me feel that way. I do everything around house because that is what I want to do, would like more help, but I don't worry about the small stuff anymore. So shall see what tomorrow brings.Get to work with mother in law at church, can't wait to see if she acts different towards me. I hope not, yet when her other son got d 2 times, of course it was the wifes fault. Bye Sue
and woke him up went up to bed and cuddled, I could tell h was interested in more but was to tired to act so i got spooned and a bunch of kisses on the back of my neck. hmmmm!
) h did his laundry last night here and each time he does I think, is he going to leave his stuff here??? at least some of it???? well not this time, the basket is on the bench by the back door ready to go, bummer, well i know it's stupid to think that anyway he wont just bring his stuff he'll ask if he can come home.