i just fear it is too fast, I mean just a bit over a month ago h was still in d mode and now he's in major boyfriend commited r mode???

he's gone out to get the food, already lit a fire, already kissed me mucho and i had to tell him to go get the food (he's afraid I'll be asleep when he gets back after my late night ) h did his laundry last night here and each time he does I think, is he going to leave his stuff here??? at least some of it???? well not this time, the basket is on the bench by the back door ready to go, bummer, well i know it's stupid to think that anyway he wont just bring his stuff he'll ask if he can come home.
I hope i can keep my mouth shut and just accept what i've got. it's really hard especially when he's being good, resentment sneaks in and then of course little thoughts of that person who's not supposed to exist in my mind anymore. ok I'll admit I have still snooped a bit at the cell phone and don't see anycalls... of course my susspisious mind says... so he uses the office phone or the other cell phone or doesn't call her but just stops by... then i think to myself what is different this time of trying from last years time of trying after discolsure of "friendship" hmmmm he doesn't live here, is talking to me more, is more relaxed, is MORE affectionate, and many more possitives sooooo that would tend to tell me that unlike last years time of "trying" when he was lying to me and still "involved" with her... things are different so she must be gone!!!! yes she's gone and also I've learned a few things not to complain about to keep peace.
I never did like h comming home late... well i am alone all day with the kids so the day is long... then i would complain... now I say take your time no rush... hell even last night i got my mom to come watch the kids so i could leave when i wanted and not have to rush him home... so I am trying to do more than keep my mouth shut about ow, though thoughts of her do creep in.

don't have much more to say tonight. hope all is well with all you folks in db land.
LL