ya right me singing in my big ass house all by myself, I'm nuts but I aint that nuts, maybe i'll sing a song in the shower or something, during the day when i sing, son tells me to stop, when i dance son tells me to stop at the end of the day when son is sleeping i am to damn tired from being his servant and playmate that i don't have the energy to be silly alone, plus it's just not as much fun, I do have to do something though I forgot how quiet it is here at night, I guess h really has been around alot lately I forgot what the past six months of sitting at the puter with no noise in the house was like, how depressing.
i told my h today what a smart man he is, it's funny I don't think people get the right impression of him the way i describe him, yes he is a bit selfish (aren't all men) and doesn't always do the right thing, but he really is a good man (why else would i marry him) he is smart, but he does not take compliments from me very well. almost negates anything i say, about his being a good dad... he says he's ok still has to learn... when i say he's smart he says he doesn't think so.... am i suddenly seeing that this man is not as secure as i thought he was and what has happend here is i've let my own insecurities beat him down thus making him think he wasn't good enough for me?? who knows, but i am seeing him in a different light, i don't mind his not thinking he is all that, confidence is a good thing but too much of it is NOT. gotta go tend to a baby think she lost her binky... I don't like being here alone at night I get scared... LL
