ok so h is not here tonight, I have put the kiddos to bed, I sit at the computer with a cat on my lap wondering what i should do...... go take a shower and start reading my book club book? sit at the puter and read depressing stories and offer support or advice??? wait for responses on my thread or on others i visit???? call someone and drink a bottle of wine????? go to sleep????? sit and watch tv??? don't know.... feel sort of lost don't know what to do with myself, actually it's just there are too many choices I don't feel like doing anything. I'm tired and I just want to cuddle in bed with my h but he is sleeping in a bed alone somewhere else giving me the space I don't want but maybe i do need. while h was gone for six months i learned to appreciate his just being here even if asleep on the couch. i always used to say i'd rather be alone and lonely than with someone and lonely cause at least then i'd have the opportunity, well i learned that's a load of crap. you want to hear something funny ow said just that to me minus the it being crap stuff as why she's leaving her h she'd rather be alone and lonely than with someone and lonley where the hell are they hiding the microphone????
