I was referring to FriendlyOnes concerning repeating the sentence about consulting with the lawyers.
It just struck me funny. I don't know why. I guess I hit the wrong reply button.
I want to know if this has been working for you? The going dark? I don't know your whole sitch. I'll read your post again. I certainly know what I've been doing hasn't worked. The times I got tickets to some event I thought he (actually we both) would be interested in seeing. He liked that. So I guess maybe his love language is QT but , I dont' know if he'd want to do anything with me at this point.
I certainly don't think so, but maybe I shouldn't asume. It would certainly seems too late now. Maybe he's been dropping hints, all along and I didn't get them? I don't know what I think about anything anymore. It all seems upside down.
When he left in '03 for 6 wks, I invited him for dinner once or twice. I know he wanted me to be a better planner, it's never been my strong suit. Maybe I should try that again in spite of everything?
Oh my goodness I still have that work to do. I feel exhausted from crying and aching, I need to buckle down and do work, but I feel so anxious that I HAVE to act, somehow, ,my M is slipping away and I don't know what to do! Running away to work hasn't helped. It's worse than ever it seems.
I need to pray for guidance. I have been and I don't know if I'm not listening very well or what.
I have a difficult enough time with not hearing Hs voice for days and knowing that he's well. I've dreaded this moment, him taking his things. His sister told me when I first met her, when we were engaged, that when someone gets on his badside he never changes his mind. And I can't stand it, I guess I rather be his friend than not, like you said, a true friend. Were's the balance in truely loving, in no acting out of ego and defensiveness or, the opposite of accepting the unaccepable.
Maybe it's like the movie "breakup"... we've been missreading our signals all along. But I don't know if his ego would allow him to change his mind now. Cause then whoever he's told whatever, well. My heart aches so. Maybe I'm the one who has been giving the mixed or incorrect signals.
