don't care to get used to it as i feel it undermines our reconcile. h just called, bla bla bla, said he really enjoyed last night even though we just fell asleep, he felt that i seemed to warm up to him and he liked it, dumb thing is he's not planning to come up tonight same old exuse has to work late and early start in the am, whatever if you wanted to come you would and I am sick of this bs, when will he realize that if he takes nights like last night and "bottles them up to build on" instead of commming back again for more he will be pushing me back into a cold state. when he chooses to not come, it very much does send me the message that he doesn't want to and then I start to not want him to, this sucks. LL
